POEMS

WHERE AM I GOING

2009-04-08T04:49:00.000-07:00

I feel lost
ever since the day you left

I felt wasted
ever since you said goodbye

I felt empty
your the only person
who filled the empty boxes
of my life

I felt bored
ever since you left me here

Now I'm watching
the sunset alone

There's no more you
by my side

I'm not hooping that
you'll ever come back

I don't have any plans
to win you back

Wishing your happy now
though loneliness is all i feel

Let me tell you
im missing you

It's really awkward
but it's the only word that fits how
I feel .

BLEED DEEP

2009-04-08T04:45:00.000-07:00

I don't know why it's breaking my heart

Though I know from the very start

That your my enemy

In anonymous way

You're like a stranger by the day

No one could ever tell how I feel

Deep inside my heart it bleeds deep

AM I HAVING THAT SYNDROME

2008-07-27T21:41:00.000-07:00

Confusion starts to grow

Time to time, minute by minute

I was thinking that was thru

But as I was trying to forget you

Tears fall down because my heart still beats for you

I don't know why this feeling emerge

I don't know why I'm still having this feeling

All I know that the warm inside

Was starting to get cold like an ice

I'm feeling sick and ill

Because my heart was having this high fever

I don't really understand why

Is this what hey call

The heart broken syndrome?

Or I'm just having this sickness to love again

CLASSROOM HEADACHE

2008-07-27T21:35:00.000-07:00

There was this teacher

He was so boring

Whenever he discussed

I couldn't understand anything

I forced my self to

But instead I've been so dumb listening

There was this one time

He was discussing about the creed

I fell asleep and that was forbid

I knew I'm wrong

But his been so fool

For students didn't listen when he talks

Even me I don't

It felt so stupid to those kinds of folks

When I look at his face

All I can see is bed

Mean but its true

Believe me people then you will know

Try to sit in then you will feel

The boredome of being a student of Mr. X

SHADOW OF YOU

2008-07-27T02:04:00.001-07:00

Who would have thought

That you would be my friend

Of all those people

I introduced my self with

I know from the very start

You liked this girl by my side

I was used of being a puppet's shadow

People could see me when the puppet's there

What could I sa

I coulnd't be like her

She's that fair and

I'm this mocha coated ones

I couldn't blame my self

If I fell from your messages

I thought that was true

Texting from time to time

Checking if each others fine

But the trick was the same old line

Your just using the shadow

To get closer to the puppet

So guess what

I'm just too smart

To know what you got

LOUSY MONDAY

2008-07-25T03:10:00.000-07:00

Today is Monday

I was sitting on the steps

I'm all alone

No friends, no classmates,just me

As I was looking through the hallway

I could see people but none of them I know

I could not look for war

I hate to admit that I'm alone

My stomach was starving for food

But all I had was a lousy biscuit

I wanted to scream but here I am

Writing all the stuff that I've done

Holding my pen tightly

While scribbling on my notepad

Making a lousy poem on a lousy Monday

DREAM INSIDER

2008-07-07T20:01:00.000-07:00

I never think of him

But in my dreams

His existence beam

I never saaw his face

Not in this very small world of mine

But every morning

I can alwys feel his embrace

I didn't know where did I met him

All I know is I cannot forget his kiss

In my dreams it always play

Like a rewinded DVD

Like a romantic cartoon play

Bearing his masculine complexion

No regrets his in my illusion

And he always fill my imagination

Whoever you are,

You're really a perfect dream insider

SUNDAY MORNING

2008-07-07T19:53:00.000-07:00

Sunday morning
starts with a gloomy feeling
when your kind of healing
memory which was heart breaking

Sunday morning
where the atmosphere was clear
and the song of the birds was all you can hear
you and your mind was nothing but in thin air

Sunday morning
is the day of reminiscing
those achy, achy feeling
very drowsy beating

Sunday morning
the day of confessing and encountering
your whole being

ILLUSIONS

2008-07-07T02:35:00.000-07:00

Maybe I'm just fooling myself
To think that you're the right guy for me

Maybe I'm just so idiot
Thinking that your calling me for a cause

Maybe I'm just stupid
Thinking that we shared the same feelings

Now I know that this is just a dream
A dream which can never be seen in the reality of life

In which you can still be awaken from your deep sleep
Just an illusion and a scenario in my imagination

For now I have to wake up and get it for real

IN A GAME

2008-07-07T02:30:00.000-07:00

In a game
there's always fame

In a game
where minds are in burning flame

In a game
where you lose and win
in the field of everything

Where everyone seems to be hopeful
and everybody are eager to be successful

In a game
called friendship
where everyone feel so hip

In a game called love
where people wants to have
what they want to treat as a dove

MOTHER

2008-07-07T02:24:00.000-07:00

The gentle touch of your hand
States that you'll stay forever in my land

You may no more sing those lullabies
I hope that times wouldn't be goodbyes

I know your in a place where coldness is felt
And here I am sitting in this cold velvet

Time can never be turned back
To those moments that we've shared around the clock

Things may vanished like the stars when the sunsets
Friends may left just like what I bet

I hope mom your here by my side
Ready to hug me deep inside

COME BACK

2008-07-07T02:17:00.000-07:00

When I first saw you
I know I love you

I do and I'll always do
But instead you left and you go

So here I am now
Still reminiscing your broken vow

Maybe I'm this stupid
Stupid just like what you did

I hope you'll come back
Because today I'm still out of luck

YOU WERE NOT THERE

2008-07-04T00:12:00.001-07:00

You were not there
For all those regrets and fear

You were not there
For you found out that Iam clumsy

You were not smiling
For you confirmed first your feeling

You were not there
For you were with another girl

You were not interested
For I'm as dull as the orchid

You would not share
For you wanted me to care

You were not sure
Of your true color

And I just wanted to be sure
That we have the same failure

ALMOST PERFECT

2008-07-04T00:05:00.000-07:00

Anticipating for anything

Waiting for everything

To comeback to normal

Loving you like it's really official

I tried to wait

Even though it's too late

I could still remember

When you were still here

I just ignore you like nothing

Because I don't know

That you're worth keeping

Now I'm like crazy

Waiting for you and

I'm acting so hazy

In my own subtle way

Isn't it a little bit funny?

Because here I am now

Feeling so dizzy

I know that it's really dramatic

If you noticed that I'm now an addict

Of a guy that was almost perfect

MY FEBRUARY

2008-07-04T00:01:00.000-07:00

February is coming

And your sort of forgetting

Those days that we shared

Those times that we cared

I was suppose to see you

But you were with your boo

I was left alone

Here want a blow

The bomb inside

The tears I've cried

The feelings I hide

For millions of days that bide

WHO'S FOOL: YOU ARE

2008-07-02T22:57:00.000-07:00

In the first place you hated him
And then you talked to him

You can't get out
All you wanted was to shout

"He is so pathetic!"
You always tell him

"Oh how obnoxious"
your espression when
there's something wrong he did

You hate him
when he sat beside you

You don't know what to do
you want to get out of his skin

So he left and he walk away
your life became so boring

Then you start to miss him
and you start to like him
with his absence

Too late and you realized
the more you hate,
the more you love...

PAL: YOU MEAN FRIEND

2008-07-02T22:53:00.000-07:00

I have this friend
in every place she's a trend

She suits when there's fame
ou can't tell that she's lame

She's always there
when you need her

She's alway present
when you need care

You can see her in every crowd
but you can't tell that she's proud

Wish her all the best
eventhough she doesn't have the
Yamashita crest

I CAN'T

2008-07-02T22:48:00.000-07:00

I can't sleep
In my bed

I can't flip
You in my head

I can't forget
Your face in my illusions

I can't find any regret
When your telling me
That you love me
with no prohibitions

I can't hear
You calling

I can't see
You smiling

I can't see
Any tears in your eyes
But in your voice it lies

Is it really true?
That you're feeling
The same way I do?

But why you didn't tell me
That I LOVE YOU
Is also beating in your heart

FRIEND

2008-07-02T22:44:00.000-07:00

A friend

she stay's with me

A friend

she cares for me

A friend

she carries me to a place of ease

Like the gentle rain

that falls from the September sky

She washes away

the tears and fears I've cried

A friend

she's all I need

A friend

she satidfies my greed

YOU

2008-07-02T22:37:00.000-07:00

In good times and in good health
Your always there because you're my wealth

A person that I can count on
A shoulder that I can lean on

A shelter when there's storm
A house just like a home

A clown when I'm sad
A smile when I'm mad

My strength when I'm sick
My ceiling when there's leak

So please don't go
So that I wont be a onesome freak!

SOMEONE LIKE YOU

2008-07-02T21:34:00.001-07:00

You're the man of my dreams

You're the crop of my cream
You're the light when it's dim

Your songs are my hymn

Maybe I can't move a mountain

But I can give you a love of fountain

Maybe I can't swim the deepest sea

But when you look at me

Love is all you can see

Thank you for not leaving me

Thank you for being here

Maybe things are not clear for you

But what I need is a guy like you